Im so fucking bored!

I cant sleep. I was falling asleep but Joe called from work(security at the HardRock)because he was bored. I got home at 11-ish and JJ ran outside and asked me to go play pool with him but I said no because I was too tired. And I knew he had the house to himself because Dave and Bonnie went out of town. Its a little odd because he never really asks me to hang out with him, but now that Anthony and I are whatever you want to call it(dating I guess) hes seems different. My mom seema to think its jealousy but he knows whenever I date guys. He sees them pick me up and even talks to some of them. I dont know, maybe he just wants to spend a little neighborly time together since he knows Im moving very soon. I called Anthiny when I got inside but we didnt get to talk much...I was a little disapointed.
I really like Anthony. We're very compatable and he doesnt bring out the bad-ass naughty side in me like Joe or the bitch side in me like Alex. He brings out the best side of me and I like that. When I called him at work today he said he doesnt care how fast or slow we take things now because he really likes me and its all on me now. I dont want to take things too fast because of his lingering feelings for Cathy. I dont think he'd fall for her again but it just doesnt seem fair to me to be with someone on a more serious level when they still have feelings for another person.
I wish he didnt live so fucking far away. I wanted to stab myself in the eye with a fork today. I was humming that stupid country song again. He listens to country music a lot but 1 song in particular is his fav and its been stuck in my head since we went to the beach. Its starting to grow on me though. Some country really isnt all that bad...oh my god, listen to me! Im turning into a fucking hill-billy. Joe would beat the shit outta me if he heard me say that...lol! I missed him a little today, it was a tad bit awkward.
Yeah Im just going on and on hoping this will make me tired. I hate it when I cant sleep. Normally I would call Alex until he bored me to sleep but...yeah, we all know the story. Tomorrows my sis's car wash thing for band....thank god, my car is so fucking dirty. I need to finish the stupid summer reading, call Ms.Clark and tell her once again I dont want to do the play, buy mascara(spelling?), clean my room, do laundry, go to school to change my schedule, go to car wash, go out to dinner with family, hang out with Anthony, go bowling with Joe and "the crew", get my sister to stop dating a 13-year-old and hook her up with Richard, start packing, work(what else is new), cash my pay checks, take CD's back to the library and most importantly...TAKE OVER THE WORLD! MWAHAHAHA! Just kidding...Im completely delusional due to my lack of sleep. That was my to-do list that needs to be to-done by tuesday. I was wondering today if Alex has any of my stuff. Did I leave anything last time I was there? Oh well, it probably wasnt important if I did. I stuufed my face with fruit roll-ups and cookies a few minutes ago. I didnt feel guilty though. I had'nt eaten Junk food in days. I feel like the biggest loser everytime I write in this journal. Especially when I write like this. Anthony said he wrote about me in his journal-y thing. I wonder what he said. Maybe Ill ask him for his username tomorrow. I might as well Start every entry with "dear diary," and and it with "love, me". God I feel like a thrid grader. I dont think Im going to keep "blogging" as some call it. Its so lame-o.